After Math

laying on my bed I'm going over everything my mind wonders to the day a week ago I tried to leave this world trying to understand my choice now as i see I'm being watched now I see my bedroom door is gone now I see I'm being treated as a crazy person now I see my life is changing now I see the aftermath of everything I'm staring at nothing my mind is blank my eyes are dead I'm trying to think I'm trying to live now as I see my live changed now I see I'll never be the same Now I see the life I lived the life I lived was a lie it's self the life I lived was so different now lying on my bed I looked at the window thinking about jumping I looked at the mirror and now I see the true me now as I see myself I see the pain I was in now as I see myself I see the hate I feel for myself now as I see myself I hate myself now I see everything I did now I see the aftermath now I see the pain I put my family in now I see the aftermath now I see the aftermath