Afraid To Love

Laying in the darkness Stars glimmer brightly You hold me tight This cold winters evening Whispering in my ear Saying how much you love me I turn away Pretending to sleep Ashamed to face you Wishing to be somewhere else Anywhere else But it’s not because of you That I turn away I’ve dreamed once, trusted once Loved once but now I can’t No matter how I try I do try But all I see is  My heart ripped in a million pieces Thrown  Fluttering to the white crusted river of tears below And now  Like an old photo in the sun I’m fading Fading from dreams, fading from trust Fading from love… Fading from you No it’s not because of you That I’m afraid to love It’s because of him He who I gave everything to I gave my time, my mind, my trust Shared my fears, my dreams, my thoughts… My bed No it’s because of him That love has become  The thing I  Fear The most