Afraid To Love

Laying in the darkness
Stars glimmer brightly
You hold me tight
This cold winters evening
Whispering in my ear
Saying how much you love me

I turn away
Pretending to sleep
Ashamed to face you
Wishing to be somewhere else
Anywhere else

But it’s not because of you
That I turn away

I’ve dreamed once, trusted once
Loved once but now I can’t
No matter how I try

I do try
But all I see is 
My heart ripped in a million pieces
Thrown 
Fluttering to the white crusted river of tears below

And now 
Like an old photo in the sun
I’m fading
Fading from dreams, fading from trust
Fading from love…

Fading from you

No it’s not because of you
That I’m afraid to love

It’s because of him
He who I gave everything to
I gave my time, my mind, my trust
Shared my fears, my dreams, my thoughts…

My bed

No it’s because of him
That love has become 
The thing I 
Fear
The most
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019


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Date: 5/24/2019 1:08:00 PM
Hello Opela Kikee, so nice to meet you. Welcome to Poetry Soup. Okay..now. when hurt like this it takes time to heal. Yes heal. After that when the right person is found, it will take time to trust. But in time you will. Have a nice day my friend.
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