Afraid of the Dark

Afraid of the dark,I am you see, For when I was little someone raped me. Those fears and terrors still fill my heart, afraid my mind is being torn apart. I cannot see when all is dark black, who is this with me,caught in the sack? Please leave me be,do me no more harm, it's been years and still there are tears. All of my nights I run and I hide. Deep in my mind a safe place to be, no one can touch me,no one you see. Not even life's worst misery. I must keep running,it must not end, must keep going,don't let it blend. Eye's of tears,heart and mind full of fears, It's been painful to many years. My innocence stolen, my joy taken away, Please help me Lord, Please help me I pray! I am safe with my loved ones, under the moon,because of God's son. Still unaware of peace in my bed, I feel afraid,the night I dread. Hands tremble,body curled up, mind is racing super speed, I want to be loved,I feel the need! Please don't hurt me like those nasty men did, I hated them,God willing,he they will rid! No place to turn,no place to run, hiding and fighting,i'm only one. Such wretched memories still haunt me each day, please go away, never to stay in a sane mind, I need to relax,need to unwind. Nobody knows the horror I've lived, don't understand? Tell me what gives? I feel alone in my own world small, like curling up into a small ball. Somebody help me, I can't do it alone. I'm tired of running from all my fears, tired of pain,tired of tears. Tired of dying inside,through out the years. Help me to live in a new way, to live for tomorrow,and also today. Help bring peace back into my mind, Please help me ,please be kind. But who do I turn to,who do I trust? I've been hurt by many! Is there anyone,not one,not any? I'm alone in my world of fear, don't get to close,you may shed a tear. Get to know me and all of my pain, no wonder i'm mental,a little insane. To much to lose,and much more to gain. In a world full of pain and sorrow, I can only hope and pray for tomorrow. My dreams are real,it happened again,and once more, please make it stop,, I can't handle no more! Dreams remind me every day, somewhere,somehow, theres got to be a way, for peace of mind and a better day. Please,please,I beg and I pray. Dedicated to all those who have ever been a victim like me, Have faith,God will make a way!