Adventure of the Lonely

They laugh as they leave me in the dark and in the damp I'm strong enough to show them, though, I myself, can't say I am The mirror screams profanity; my ramp into insanity The sadness that consumes me; is living where I shouldn't be My journal is my mind's riots The words that I've whispered in the sounds of silence I've fought hard and fast to be here. I deserve at least to dream here Of a place I'd rather be, and a life I'll never see Am I going insane, or am I paying them to cure me Am I winning, or am I losing my mind There are no arms there to catch me No friends here to patch my broken soul The adventure of the lonely leaves a massive, gaping, hole I'm failing without my Father Falling fast into arms with a name I've never heard and a face I've never seen He left me to fall into the abyss unknown To burn my house and to burn my home trying to live on my own But now I'm lost in a dream No sense of direction, and I'm falling toward the ones who've pulled me into their scheme But am I lost or am I found Can they hear my heart's sound I make chaos for breakfast; my hat filled with mice Running around giving self-righteous advice I'll cook up a storm while I learn how to feel And I'll teach me to read between the unreal I watch them lie, and I see them pray Are they the same as they were yesterday They're talking without speaking; hearing without listening They can be beautiful, but their minds are full of mimicking And their souls are long gone I put them to the test; they pass, but are they genius Or is it just a con There are none as real as He Sometimes I get the feeling He's watching over me He makes me hope to understand Him, while I try not to offend Him To the adventure of the lonely I can no longer refer