Addictions and Change

I battle addictions And they’re as sweet as honey, As a summer day and I’m okay Good feeling’s only price is surrender I battle addictions And they feel like watching Myself rip up rationality, Building and spreading like cancer I battle addictions And they infest every cell My body, home to an unchecked mind And longing that feels like home I battle addictions And recovery is more painful So every day they scream to return And sometimes I do and lose I battle addictions And I know that I don’t want to And I know my mind is changing And there might be hope in circumstance One day I will break the cycle The familiar repeat of desire What holds me down and chokes me But will someday make me stronger