Addicted

My lips tremble thinking about what you said last night. I close my eyes and dreamed of a place you couldn't make me cry. But your always in my dreams, Bitting, fighting to be seen. I don't want to see you, but you make it some how and torture me my soul cries at night to survive. I didn't want this to be how it is. You made me laugh occassionally so that's what love is? I cuddled, you screamed some how love is far away from what you said it was. I soaked in the bathtub for hours and still I can smell you on me. Don't you know how that feels crying I walked out on the porch. You made me feel so helpless and down and now that your gone I crave for your blood. I want you I need you, no one else beats me like you. But then again I guess i'm just addicted to lies and abuse you wanted me to like it didn't you?