Abandoned

she had put a band on her wrist

          in case she got lost on the journey

                    ‘missing me but don’t return to sender’


no name or address just a simple message

          a foresworn identity label of lost track

                    her abandoned reality checked out


dumped but not stranded she vacated

          the shell of a wreck that left her misplaced

                    had surrendered to storms high and dry


she would have to relinquish misgivings

          abjure past convictions and trespass

                    into the wilderness of broken repair


disavow compass needle and star chart

          drift from transgressions into unknowable

                    recovery of courage in a wide open sea


with no emergency flares she capitulated to

          forces beyond her control and shredded

                    the life buoy of sunken dreams and despair


flood gates were open as she shed one last tear

          a carcass bobbing in wild water and white rapids

                     drift wood cutting deep inside her final remains


she was scared as everyone had left her side
  
          ‘too much chaos and dysfunction’ they said

                     ‘she’ll destroy you while spiraling down’


a fool’s ship in quarantine flying a yellow flag

          of black death and purulent contamination

                    a hobgoblin’s delight but perilous and vile


she felt disowned and homeless cast aside

          rejected and discarded with no one to blame

                    other than her own miserable deception


after years of rip tides and dangerous currents

          she crashed on breakwater emotions and pain

                    overcame the sea wall and held on to the shore


a disused fisherman’ cottage offered her shelter

          the fireplace warmed her bones and contempt

                    thawed her mind and rekindled a weary soul


a glance in the mirror of hope showed her mercy

          and revealed what an epic path she had taken

                    blissful abandon and a band on scarred joint




14th June 2020
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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La France Avatar
June 24, 2020 at 7:48 PM
Kai, congratulations on your win in my abandon contest _Constance
Neumann Avatar
June 29, 2020 at 5:31 AM
Thank you for your praise and thank you for sponsoring, Kai
Mishra Avatar
June 22, 2020 at 8:28 AM
I could read this tale of a courageous journey over and over. Sheer brilliance of your words. Congratulations on your win :)
Neumann Avatar
June 29, 2020 at 5:32 AM
Thank you Aditi. Life writes the best stories...Kind wishes, Kai
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June 14, 2020 at 12:06 PM
Lovely, dear friend. Such a wonder! God bless you with much love and many more amazing writes, Gina
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