Abandoned

she had put a band on her wrist in case she got lost on the journey ‘missing me but don’t return to sender’ no name or address just a simple message a foresworn identity label of lost track her abandoned reality checked out dumped but not stranded she vacated the shell of a wreck that left her misplaced had surrendered to storms high and dry she would have to relinquish misgivings abjure past convictions and trespass into the wilderness of broken repair disavow compass needle and star chart drift from transgressions into unknowable recovery of courage in a wide open sea with no emergency flares she capitulated to forces beyond her control and shredded the life buoy of sunken dreams and despair flood gates were open as she shed one last tear a carcass bobbing in wild water and white rapids drift wood cutting deep inside her final remains she was scared as everyone had left her side ‘too much chaos and dysfunction’ they said ‘she’ll destroy you while spiraling down’ a fool’s ship in quarantine flying a yellow flag of black death and purulent contamination a hobgoblin’s delight but perilous and vile she felt disowned and homeless cast aside rejected and discarded with no one to blame other than her own miserable deception after years of rip tides and dangerous currents she crashed on breakwater emotions and pain overcame the sea wall and held on to the shore a disused fisherman’ cottage offered her shelter the fireplace warmed her bones and contempt thawed her mind and rekindled a weary soul a glance in the mirror of hope showed her mercy and revealed what an epic path she had taken blissful abandon and a band on scarred joint 14th June 2020