A Warm Wet Day In December
On the warm wet day in december
I look back at my life and remember
How it was in days gone by
Everyone i loved taken and still i know not why
Years that cant be lived again
Moments gone in a whisp of wind
A tear slips from my eye down my face
Times i wish could be replaced
Each year has swifty sped away
To be replaced with dismal gray
Never having risked too much
Never knowing true loves touch
Always remembering the way pain felt
Dealing with the hand fate has dealt
Months later..
A burning hot day in August
Looking about I find no one to trust
Its never love just lust
Leaving this spot is a must
I can't breathe my mind abt to bust.
Stuffed filled to overflowing capacity
Yet it holds me here this god dam gravity
Today is a tragedy
A failed broken ed up strategy
I felt each one they all came to visit
Happiness knocked and as I let it in
The lies begin
Loyality a fart in the wind
Secrets whispers yet again
As happy left in came Pain
Always up to his constant drain
Hurting squeezing until no longer can I refrain
The screams echo in this lonely brain
Pain leaves only for Lonesome to rush upon me
Letting me feel the empty
The lack of sanity
This is my reality
Lonesome drags it's feet as it heads for the door.
Only to take hope, faith, and more
Dragging them from me as it did before.
Ripping them from my very core.
Their seats barely cool as Despair arrives
This one is so hard to survive
After all the others have left why be alive
Then he starts, menacingly begins to unravel and conive
Words silky smooth he takes his dive
Within me now Despair so hard to be shaken.
My world trembles I'm quaken
Despair running it's course seems I am mistaken
I am still breathing altho I feel my world breaking
Still feeling as each crack lengthens
This time my determination does not strengthen
Why am I still breathing
Death is all I'm needing
Despair makes its place and settles for good
Escaping from myself as if I could
Just breathe I wish I would
Step away from me you certainly should
Despair stirs as something draws attention
No please don't let that one be mentioned
Today with despair settled in and not leaving
I have stopped believing
Stopped giving and receiving
Now just a shell perhaps I'll be leaving
My heart is almost complete numb
This time I fell boy was I dumb
Grasping at the littlest, a ing crumb
I hope it doesn't wait I need them to leave and it to come..
Copyright © Rose Henderson | Year Posted 2018
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