A Soaring Sensation Not Yet Felt

I'm feeling overwhelmed to say the least Why do I feast upon my fears before the Feast? I'm feeling out of place, yet free in space I'm feeling lazy and insecure; far from grace I haven't forgotten the feeling of discouragement Neither did I forget to remember encouragement A Soaring, sweet sensation not yet felt Is holding on to me like a reliable belt But, I'm sorry for the way I feel if it hurts you Disgraceful to the touch is the burns of rue If only you knew what kind of a mess I've been Then again, understanding me is another seven times seven Maybe I should be happy, mother Maybe I shouldn't feel crappy, father I just want to deal with these issues on my own I just want to be left alone, yet call you both on my phone… I'm being annoying as usual… I'm being selfish and it isn't cool… I need another outlet to get me through this regret Lord, I need Your love to guide me, so I won't get upset 2019 has been a long and strenuous year for me I have been struggling to avoid my reality...my fatality… Overcast skies won't weigh down my wholehearted smile I would walk a million miles just to be with you for a little while Agonizing pain reigns upon me today Weeping is woven on my mouth I must say You dug up a hole of hatred for me to fall in I've fallen into the strange in-between once again Mother, come back home Father, where do I roam? Please hold on to my arms and be free I didn't do any harm physically, but emotionally, I messed up vainly It's okay to be alone Out there on my own Out there on my own Into the strange in-between Wondering where you been Wandering how you've been Again...once again, left in the dust of my own words Once more, left airborne with the brazen birds and I soar… No longer feeling overwhelmed to say the least This year is going to be a rather fantastic Feast