A Smile

A smile is supposed to be real, not fake But instead, people think that they can just take Even when someone takes their life, just with the hold of a very sharp knife Once you start bleeding, you'll soon be needing A hug from a loved one, cuz without it you're done I know I'm sounding, like I'm drowning The truth is I am, and I feel like damn I'm not lying, when saying I'm dying Cuz I feel like hell, trapped in a cell Without any luck, I feel so stuck. It's R.I.P, now you see what its like to be me I feel this stress, so, I need some test But with this mess, I really need some rest. Lying in bed, in my head Already I feel dead. I don't want a gun, I just need to run But every time I try, I just want to cry Feeling like pain, it drives me insane I don't want to whelp, but I need the help I know I need saving, cuz I hate caving Into depression. I hate the expression, because friends come and go, but you know what though, the real ones stay. Even if you say, I don't need you because they know what you've been through They'll be there forever, and never let you say never. I tried to OD, but that’s not me I know I’m strong. My mind can be wrong yet I needed time to think But then i would sink,l ike a sinking ship With a little rip. I wanted to ride, yet I feel like I’m tide I become more sicker, when I'm triggered. I feel like ing and my heart has been ripped Take some bullets, grab a gun, pull the trigger, now I'm gone I was done with life but I didn't want to die, so, I grab the knife but I only make a letter saying goodbye. But I put it to the side and start to cry. I feel so trapped and so very crappy but I start rap about my feelings. My depression is very aggressive so make myself progressive and I start testin myself. I'll feel like drowning when I'm down and on the ground so I start making my rounds. My Demons won't be seein