A Sad Holiday

My routine eats at me day after day it's always the same time for some change a different light a different perspective a different world it's a damn shame how this time of year is suppose to be the happiest but for some odd reasons all I see is misery hatred rudeness and people wonder why this is my least favorite time of year what's the point broken family in a broken home never really been the same see happiness and it depresses me wondering if I will ever experience that I'm a cross between misunderstood and confused I want to enjoy the holidays but why something bad always happens this time a year I lose a friend a friendship dies family members fight the true meaning of christmas it's not Santa Claus it's not presents its happiness forgiveness family and friends and all I wanna do is be as far away from everyone as I can no one needs to see my sadness or feel my pain