A Recent Change Of Mind

That stiff-neckedness; that boulder-like stoneness The so-called track-travel; that perfection-proneness The 'looking-down-upon' others as backboneless That sharp surety of sheer, shadowless shallowness All came to a standstill like a train on a halt. I felt something stopping my voluntary vault. 'Take it easy'—I heard the inner self prompting. 'There's a need for reciprocating and bonding. Perfectionism has high streams of expectations. Thoughtlessness fills and fixes all fluctuations. Critical, unrealistic ruthless morals Leads to my depression, unmet goals, and laurels. Fear, failure, procrastination, low self-esteem Nullity and nothingness enter a clear stream. Like a wounded dove amidst vultures, I suffer. The environmental zeitgeist turns stone tougher. I should be calm, cool, and consciously cogitate. To follow out, I must mindfully meditate. Thus, like a serene, solemn stream searching the sea I plunged into the hunt for my lost true 'me. Shedding that glittering gift-paper-wrapped spirit And securing a supple self to my merit This change of mind has now taken on newer roots. In my thoughts, words, and deeds, bringing abundant fruits