A New Start

I remember my cuts as if it was today. I look apon my scars wishing i could die away. all the blood the rag had sucked up with thirst i always felt as if my heart would burst. all the lies i told and bad memories i hold. my cries and screams at night. why cant i ever seem to stop this crazy fight. the fight my body holds within. and the fight i never seem to win. memories coming back and spitting in my face. all the fun times id miss cuz i was always in a race. a race for my life, except my life was always there. i never seem to think about or have a thought of care. i never noticed the great friends i had, and i never tried to stop being sad. But now i pull these strings that are controlling my life. The strings are the only thing im cutting with a knife. all those bad times are over. im beginning to open up. i see all my friends are still waiting for my complete closure. and my happiness is poring out of the cup. so i wipe away my resentfulness and i smile like my heart. i have no more aggressfulness and im ready for a new start.