A Mask

No regrets laugh and smile live every day like its your last you hope for a good day you even put on a smile but that smile is just a mask to hide the truth behind broken and hurt life is going nowhere you seem happy on the out but nobody sees the hurt in your eyes to afraid to tell anyone for they may so oh your just depressed so you keep it all to yourself wanting some love, but when you cry out no one hears or comes they just shut you out tears are forming its getting to be to much you write a quick goodbye saying how you have felt all these years maybe now they will know and see how they were to you you leave it on the table go searching for Daddys gun put it to your head but can't budge to pull the trigger crumbbling to your knees you sit quietly thinking tears are falling do i really want this? you sit for hours finally they all come home and find you on the floor reacting like anyone would crying saying im sorry they ask why? you give them the note they all read in silence crying and shocked to read how you felt in silence you stay soon everyone gives you a hug from that simple hug you feel different finally some love thinking to yourself im glad i didnt pull that trigger