A Lost Mothers Testimony

I remember their laughter; it haunts my soul and mind everyday, Their smiles our in my mind to stay, Their happiness always came first to me, I'm lost without them, without them here I am going crazy, They are so precious and so innocent, They are a gift , heaven sent, They are my reason for going on in this crazy world, My three handsome boys and my bueatiful little girl, I am paying for my mistakes on not being a good mother, If I could have them here with me, I would never make another, I made bad choices not knowing I was hurting my angels, Now without them I'm living in hell, I know God knows my heart and I know he will bring them home to me, I'll be the mother I know I can and should be.