A Long Penitence

I hated you. God I gave myself every reason to hate you. Even though they weren’t real, But at the same time I’d do anything for you. Sometimes it’s more like I want to kill you, But I would always kill for you. We’ve only got each other, And that’s always going to be that way, All the way till the end. I can’t bear the thought of a world or life without you. But at the same time, No matter how much I wanted to be with you, Spend time with you, Bond; You always managed to push me away, Belittle me to the point where I feel like I don’t belong, Like I’m in your space. Like I’m invading your home. You make me feel like it’s not my home too. Like we’re not sisters, Which we are. And every time you leave me behind, Or not want me to be with you and others, It really makes me feel like you are ashamed of me. I don’t want to be you, I’ve already been you. I just want you to share a little of your life with me. We barely see or talk to each other for months. All I ask is forgiveness.