a hundred random thoughts

my life is a discombobulation of endless thoughts like food is NOT my friend exercise is my friend fasting MAY be a good idea eating takes up way too much time death is hanging over me like a dark cloud I watch too much TV it is my enemy money is not my friend my life clock is ticking fast no time to do everything I want procrastination is something I do housework needs to be done (!) I need to focus because I am befuddled must write stories and poems each day cannot suppress the storyteller in me friends often cannot be trusted family live far away I like to draw but there is no time wish to read the books are getting dusty want to wander the library for hours meander the art gallery alone go on nature hikes with my camera work on my photography editing skills have coffee in a really nice cafe to contemplate the puzzle of my life dance class is my friend but it takes time meditation and praying is something to do taking my pills, blood pressure, blood sugar tick, tock, tick how much longer God (?) I can honestly say I have never, ever been bored but I have been confounded what should I be doing today what (?) I need a plan tick, tock, tick, tock