A Dismantled Poet

A Dismantled Poet



And here I will put agony
Just leave it there on the shelf
And maybe I can ignore it
Let it gather dust in so many blankets
That maybe I won’t feel it

And over here this is where I will put beauty
Though it should be close by and near to agony
Because I can never seem to capture enough of it
Still
The agony of beauty 
My word that’s poetry !

Now over there I think that is where I will put love
In a playful cauldron
Right under the feet of agony and beauty
Toss in suffering and joy
Throw in the odd tear and smile
And surround the pot in a wallpaper
Of dieing and blossoming flowers

Perhaps I’ll give the whole mess a stir
Chuck in some sex
And season with need and want
Bake for hours upon hours before done

Oh and here, here is where I will put God
Useless bearded old git that he is
Never once has he answered my prayers
Or if he did, it came attached to some cosmic joke
Of time, destiny and fate

Religion ? Nah; throw that out for the trash, don’t need that

Now where shall I put me ?
Should I stand myself a little bronze figurine 
Right atop a mirror top table
Perfect positioning
From there I would be able to look at me and ponder me
Endlessly

Oh… and here is the little blue glass bottle
Where I shall put my dreams
Along with their wishes and a little pinch of love
Stolen from its cauldron 
Which is now boiling hot


And right over there in that corner over there somewhere
Is where I will keep anger and hate
Along with their indignation out of sight
And once in a while bring them out for a dusting off
But mostly with knuckles and animate verbs

And where oh where shall I put compassion
And her brother mercy
Should I stash them in the same corner as hate
Or place them in the cauldron of love
Or maybe I should hand it to God
Useless bearded old git that he is
Or hide it beneath the blankets of agony
Or write it in my praise of beauty

What will it be

Should I toss into the piles of greed
And let gluttony feed on its weakness
Always it seems it does
Or should I keep it on my mirror tabletop
So at least I can see it occasionally

Maybe I should take all these things
And put them in a dictionary
Then I could thesaurus them all
To write poetry
Or maybe its just better that I just bundle the whole lot
Into a cat tailed ragged messes knotty knot
And just call the whole thing
Life
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Shango Avatar
May 26, 2009 at 1:46 PM
There on this canvas of exploding beauty ... would still be a missing piece ... but the lovers' eyes would not know ... too drunk with the joy of your write.
Winter Avatar
May 26, 2009 at 8:37 AM
You should put it all into the heart and soul of your true love, as she shares all of her with you. Then you should put it into a book, where I will be first on line to buy. Sigh. Any adjective about your writing will only be redundant. Love, Shar
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May 25, 2009 at 10:04 AM
I think the is the best piece I have ever read from you..you have written some strong works in the past but this piece with its grittiness and just dirty honesty that will let some hearts spit fire of regret that they read it is just mind blowing..i dug many things about the write....too many to mention...
Orozco Avatar
May 25, 2009 at 10:01 AM
God is all Love! You must seek Him! Breath-taking piece here brother! Just genius! - jeremia
Devonshire Avatar
May 25, 2009 at 9:44 AM
You have blended all of the emotional ingredients that make life so challenging and sometimes cause us to question God's role. Guess we all wonder why our prayers do not generate the responses we'd hoped to receive, but I do believe he is listening. With so much strife throughout our lives, it can be difficult to accept this is what He had in mind when He created us. Awesome write, Colin. Much food for thought in that cauldron! Love, Carolyn
Megens Avatar
May 25, 2009 at 9:20 AM
colin first let me say you dont have to believe in GOD but i know if HE isnt present in your life you wouldnt be where you are you are a fierce writer and you have so much to share with the world you believe in what you must but i know HE believes in you
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