A Brother Lost

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this spring we lost a brother to bad drugs. In memory of Michael

I won’t pretend we were close.
We both know that wasn’t the case.
Yet, news of your passing rocked me to my core.
Your wife asked what we remembered.
I don’t want to tell her what I recall.
I don’t want her to know the grief you caused.
I don’t want to record those violent words spoken.
I don’t want to add to her sorrow.
She knows part of it, but I doubt that she knows it all.
I don’t want her to know it all.
I watched as your mother opened the special delivery package.
I watched as her sorrow-etched face held your ashes.
I watched as she placed them aside.
I watched her question, “What next?”
I watched the pain and closure engulf her.
In the silence, I felt helpless. “Why?”
You were such an athletic youth.
You were such a devoted father.
You had good dreams.
Why did you cast them away?
What prompted you to pursue destruction?
Who guided you into this alternative way?
When did the fractures of your heart first appear?
Where did you find that final resting place?
How are we to deal with all these unresolved questions?
As I think of you, my brother, please understand,
Your family never stopped loving you, through all the struggles,
In the dark night of your soul.
With nothing more we can do, we commit you to the care of your Creator,
And say a quiet requiem for you.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2023



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Date: 9/10/2024 5:12:00 AM
Dear Elizabeth, such a strong emotive poem with lots of sadness and loss due to drug addiction. I am a D&A and MH therapist and work in Philadelphia, where the drugs run rampant with whole neighborhoods falling apart. My dad was an abusive alcoholic and me and my two brothers became alcoholics and through the grace of God we all got sober. I have been sober since 1993. I felt every word of your pain and suffering as well as his. Well Inked! Blessings, My Dear Friend, Daniel
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Elizabeth Feeley
Date: 9/10/2024 8:18:00 AM
Thank you Daniel. My tee-tottling cynical self wonders if someone deliberately killed him. A question that I could not voice with anyone in the family. That wasn’t even considered by the authorities. Just another addict. Hurriedly cremated and written off. I’m glad that you and your brothers got sober. God’s grace is astounding. Keep up the good work…Elizabeth
Date: 10/2/2023 1:23:00 PM
This is a sad poem. I hope your brother is at peace. The poem, I hope, is a deterrent. Thank you.
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Elizabeth Feeley
Date: 10/2/2023 2:32:00 PM
Thanks Hilda, He was the youngest of his siblings and the most defiant. Yes, I hope it is a deterrent, but also to remember the struggles of others who are both loved and misunderstood.
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