A Battered Woman's Mind

I am so sorry baby For all of the pain, I caused I'm not sure what I ever did I am not sure what went wrong Your words were constantly stabbing me Over and over like a sharp knife In my head, I kept telling myself This can't be my life You hitting me constantly With your large manly fists I am blacking out Was there something I missed Staring at me with no love Your dark eyes didn't blink I allowed you to kill all my spirits This is love I think My head is hurting The skin beneath my eyes swollen black & blue Asking myself over and over What did I do to hurt you Baby, I'm sorry please stop hurting me I love you I didn't mean to hurt thee I promise I won't do whatever I did again Baby, you are the only one Baby, you are my man Your eyes black filled with so much hatred Your mouth sharp words filled with swords You are punching and smacking me I am trying my hardest to avoid Tears streaming My eyes red and stinging Heartbroken your fists have spoken Blood in my throat Now I am choking Thinking is this love His man made knots all over my body Asking myself Is this the love I should be proud of Lost Pain is the only thing I feel right now How can I really be your wife I am So lost and so confused Wondering will this always be my life