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I
Silence
the most deadly poison of all
The sin i play with when i'm alone
   II
A piercing scream
echoes throughout the night
Another time, it is mine
screaming at the top of my lungs
but nothing comes out
just a strangled cry

Throat closes up
cold, bony hands clasp my neck
air stops
can't breath
can't move
nor think
vision growing dim
growing black
cold motionless
trying to break free
but fail
   III
white and black keys
a simple way
to express my mind
soothe my nerves
one of the few places
where i belong
   IV
What are you looking at?
you see the scars?
never had the blade rule your perfect life
everything was handed to you on a spotless silver platter
But everyones not like you
perfect; that gift
Why are you looking at me?
Never seen anybody like me?
so low
had to fight and bleed
to get where i am
and even now it is nothing
never was and never will be
anything
(always) an outsider (outcast)
an emo (depression)
(hear) voices (Hello I'm Back)
She isn't pain right now
She is inspiration
my words that flow from the pens black ink
She paints the picture in my head
Both good and dark
but she seems a friend
this spirit in my head
this being
she's nicer
nor causing any pain
no fresh self inflicted wounds
   V
my love
my life
my every tear
i shed for thee
i long for thee
wish your presence
was by my side

my heart is icing over
needing your warmth
to chase the chill away
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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