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I feel stronger than ever, even though I used to feel empty inside I'm walking my path and still have plenty more miles My scars are on show but they won't outshine my smile Got told i'd be dead by 21 but here I am at twenty five My dumb ways In younger days Caused concern Sleeping around, not eating and self-harming every other day I didn't believe people when they told me there's got to be another way But the memories I don't like I've been taught to burn I picked up the blade to cope because I didn't have a hand to hold No hug from my parents when I was standing cold No movie, but I was acting out like I managed to land a role Didn't like the cards I was dealt so I planned to fold Going to school but my attention was elsewhere Got bullied, and I felt scared Football and Hip-Hop were the few things I managed to enjoy Quiet, but I was popular with girls for some reason, maybe they just love a damaged boy I didn't feel a loss when my dad died, nothing felt different When he was breathing, I wasn't as important as his drinking I wrote poems about him but couldn't bring myself to cry Every night I'd lay in bed and pray for myself to die At 17 the weight of the world left my shoulders broke I couldn't carry on anymore, so I bought some tablets and overdosed Thought that would be it, but I woke up in a hospital bed later on Till this day, I still can't get the tablets flavour gone That's the one thing I can't forget it still haunts me Depression makes fun of me and taunts me I'm just trying to survive one day at a time And find a way to cope with the thoughts that play on my mind Should I have kept this to myself? Have I shared too much? I'm just trying to feel things I've been scared to touch I'm trying to let go of what has been a heavy weight I've made my mistakes, but I'm trying to grow every day I feel stronger than ever, even though I used to feel empty inside I'm walking my path and still have plenty more miles My scars are on show but they won't outshine my smile Got told i'd be dead by 21 but here I am at twenty five