2-24-04

I can feel the anger as it rises Rendering me helpless at times As if the moon of darkness rises As it has done so many times How many times can I suppress it And totally ignore my angel With out lashing out and being explicit Continuing to be in the heat of anger I strive to be calm and collected When all along I want to explode To always be sen yet rejected Feeling alone and completely cold I want to scream and tell you "I am who I am leave me be" I live for me and not you Why can't you just let it all just be Must you harass me so Or do you enjoy the torturing The endless questions or things you want me to do Why don't you spend more time listening I tell you time after time again I try my best to tell you That I am finally happy again And you are making me angry too I want to be free To enjoy life on my own To totally be all of me I want to live like the wind is blown Untamed and wild but so free Can I be so selfish in life To want better for me But it is my life