12 Years

Wake up, eyes low, hearts heavy, Mind so gone, can I move; Yeah barely. Flash backs of this day… 12 years ago is mostly all I can say. Trying so hard to fight back these tears. If God is real, why hasn’t he dead away these fears? More like guilt of losing you… I was so young what could I do? You beg me not to leave, I left anyway. Thought looking fly was more important but then you past away. 12 years, I can’t get your face out my mind. Wonder if I would had stayed would everything be fine… Damn it would had, Now I’m crying my eyes out at myself I grow so mad. Wishing it was me instead of you. Restless nights for 12 years is what I have been through. Visions of you growing up with us turn quickly into nightmares. Wake up, chest tight, as the pain build up in lairs. I can never forget your last words when I said I will see you soon. You said you wouldn’t be here, then I got that call around noon… R.I.P Jessica.