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I remember being 12 years old dreaming of being 21 Now I'm 24 wondering if the girl in the mirror is proud of me The young and innoncent me dreaming of better days What a year that was Already feeling burdened hoping I'd be free some day With a heavy heart I held on to the hope of falling in love someday and we'd walk to the sunset Always felt a little different Already tired and numb from anxiety Being alone was my safest space I'd look at the other kids running and feeling free And I knew someday that would be me I grew up Fell in love and that was the happiest I've ever been Till they drained and sucked all my energy My second heartache The older I get the more I see that little girl I used to be Tired, numb but still hopeful Rolling with life's punches Dancing to the voices in my head that tell me I'll never be good enough I've always known though, That someday I'd run free and breathe again For now, I'll keep on holding on I'll keep dreaming of when I'm 42