-the Determination To Heal-
So I had my spinal fusion last Thursday. It took a few days to be able to move without tears but I got through it with the grace of God. I will be celebrating 13 years of sobriety from pain pills March 7th, so this surgery was a very tough choice for me with pain relief options post op. But I am getting through it one minute at a time with the help of my family, friends and the Lord. Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers. I wrote this today while I am laid up. My healing has begun....
the truth lies in the depth of pain,
when each step feels worse than the last-
where only hope and faith can remain
because of the injuries in my past
i knew i could forge ahead with this choice,
but i knew not the enduring agony i’d face,
with little room to move and no voice,
but i’m starting to feel God’s grace
why do i barely write anymore?
barely do what i adore-
learning to close the door
on the life of pain i led before
i feared i could not live without moaning,
thought i could never get past the straining-
but today is the day i’ll start growing
with only good days ahead remaining
pain pills were the devil inside,
thirteen years of sobriety i embraced-
last thursday i took a pill and cried,
in the hospital from pain the i faced
why did i think i could have a major operation,
without needing them to start to heal properly?
stubbornness turned into determination
because i realized i am a different me
o, what a struggle to know i need the relief,
what a way to feel with years of serenity-
but i hold in my heart the belief
that i did not ruin my beautiful sobriety
_________________________
2.9.22
-Luloo
Copyright © Lu Loo | Year Posted 2022
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