- But a Moment Away -

she was amorphous,
shapeless and humble-
no ethereal sky could
release her self-assurance

her lassitude ran wild-
for she was weary since birth,
sacrificing what was never hers
for the chase of redemption

ceasing who she was to become
as i stacked sandbags against
the river of her sorrow-
created a dam to make sure
she would stay safe and dry

i wear propinquity like
a silk blanket as i start to
reminisce on all the opulence
she longed for

her insouciance was
a blithe nonchalant notion-
verses of fear prevail in
subtle solitude,
and
i am left without breath,
alone without the ability
to release what used to
be mine…
      ~for it’s always been her~

wrapped up in a floppy
cardboard box tightly 
wound with a dull ruby ribbon-
there was no way out, 
lost in a lopsided labyrinth 

laden in a tomb too coarse
to decay, 
she awaited the day disarray 
went adrift-
craving a heavenly haven,
abandoned and graven;
she weeps in woe – 
seraphs begin to pray...
for death is none but a moment away

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1.) amorphous
2.) lassitude
3.) propinquity
4.) opulence
5.) insouciance

date - 1.29.20
Exalted Words Poetry Contest
Chantelle Anne Cooke

I chose these words because I thought they would fit well
with my theme of loneliness and sorrow about the sad life
my sister led before taking her life. I struggle daily, still, 
after almost 10 years. Each word uses the imagery of the 
emotions she felt dealing with depression and anxiety.
She was so sad and troubled, though the most beautiful 
woman I ever met.

(thank you for this contest, it was healing)
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020


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Date: 2/26/2020 1:57:00 PM
I know your sister Karen's life and death is behind so many of your poems and this is an exceptional example of your work. I found it so so moving LuLoo. I especially love ' i wear propinquity like a silk blanket as i start to reminisce on all the opulence she longed for' congrats on your win and I am adding this to my faves for many reasons:-) hugs Jan xx
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Date: 2/22/2020 5:32:00 AM
Beautifully done Lu Loo...you hold your sister in your heart...that's all we can do...sending poetic love my friend...much pain ascends the skies...^WW^ :o)
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