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Drunken Thoughts

You fooled me
You played me
You cheated on me
I'm at a lost 
Drowning on thoughts 
Sinking deeper
Darkness closing in
Mind flick 
Anger ignite
The now raging fire is about to explode 
Let lose is the scream sounding beyond 
Awaken are those who sleeps on drunken thoughts 
Blinded and disarrayed 
A spark of reality flashed
I'm a fool for being fooled
I'm pathetic for being played
I'm a loser for being cheated on
Who am I now
Hungover on thoughts
Tears of  great pain are flowing wildly
like streams in a bad storm 
Feeling sorry isn't going to cut it
Regretting isn't going to rewind yesterday
Hating you won't free me of you 
But walking away is a start
Making today be a new beginning 
Beginning of respecting myself 
and let you be the death of 
my drunken thoughts
That would be me now... Smile!
       
       Akkina R Downing 
            11-16-16

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Edward Mccall

Date: 7/4/2017 11:03:00 AM

Such honesty yet such sadness and heartbreak however you've proven strong stand your ground in emerge victorious. You've written a beautiful piece here Kina into my favorites it goes.

Akkina Downing
Date: 7/4/2017 12:41:00 PM

Awe, thank you so much Ed, you just made my day :) hugs

Liam Mcdaid

Date: 11/28/2016 6:15:00 PM

deeply beautiful pen akkina the blessing is finding the truth wishing you a blessed week

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/28/2016 6:55:00 PM

Many many thanks Liam, and you have a great week :)

Paloma P

Date: 11/19/2016 6:39:00 AM

Been there, done that, learned my lesson! Relatable indeed. Cheers :)

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/19/2016 6:49:00 AM

Thanks P :)

Frederic Parker

Date: 11/18/2016 4:56:00 PM

I enjoyed this poem for its introspection and understanding of what to do to free ones-self from emotional upheaval..

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/18/2016 6:54:00 PM

Thank you so much Frederic. I appreciate your words ok kind :)

Gary Bateman

Date: 11/18/2016 6:25:00 AM

Hello Akkina!! Thanks again, for your read and comments on the recent POTD selection ("Ancient Shadows Awaken into God's Light") that I co-authored with my three colleagues. I really like you verse write here on "Drunken Thoughts." You describe most excellently situational aspects that perhaps all of us, from one time to another, have experienced in our lives. Ah . . . yes -- the human condition. Like my friend and colleague, Tim Smith, I'm smiling now!! Let us all smile!! A "7"!! Best, Gary

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/18/2016 9:45:00 AM

Thank you so much Gary! I do appreciate all the comments from all you great poets. (Smile)

Tim Smith

Date: 11/17/2016 8:00:00 PM

Yes, I was that fool who was fooled...but now I smile....sometimes

Akkina Downing
Date: 11/17/2016 8:15:00 PM

I'm sorry you were but I'm real glad you're smiling now :)