Tainted Bloodline
They left me not because of a lack of love, but because I loved them enough to let them go. The age-old adage rings true: if you love something, set it free; if it returns, it’s yours. Yet, there is another possibility—perhaps they sought to have their cake and eat it too, wanting the comfort of my affection while exploring other options.
As poets, we often hesitate to embrace phrases like this—lines filled with bitterness that suggest failure. However, it’s important to recognize that a failed relationship doesn’t signify personal failure; rather, it highlights problems, issues that either we created, or our partners did. Let’s take a moment to unpack these problems:
- **Lack of Capital**: Financial struggles can put immense strain on a relationship, creating a sense of insecurity and tension that makes intimacy difficult.
- **Lack of Patience**: In a fast-paced world, the ability to take things slow and nurture a relationship is often sacrificed, leading to misunderstandings and resentment.
- **A Weak Man Seeking Rescue from a Strong Woman**: When one partner relies heavily on the other for emotional support or validation, it creates an imbalance that can ultimately lead to resentment.
Each of these issues acts as a thorn lodged in the heart, painful and hard to ignore. The depth of that pain may begin to fade after the initial heartbreak, yet trust and love become fragile and elusive, slipping through fingers like sand.
I had a premonition that I would lose them; I could sense it in the air, the unsettling aroma of tainted blood—a symbol of betrayal or unresolved issues—wafting from their presence as they drew near. With that realization, I made a choice. I stopped the kisses that once sparked joy, pulled away from the intimacy that built our connection, and inevitably, the feelings of unwarranted jealousy crept in. I felt the emotional hurt of rejection seep into my bones.
It’s easy to romanticize the idea of love, but reality often compels us to confront the truth of who we are with. When we begin to see people for what they truly are—flaws, imperfections, and sometimes that painful clarity is just enough to set us free.
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