this wonder fled, Altered, estranged, disintegrated, lost. Nor shall my love avail you in your hour.

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By alienation is meant a mode of experience in which the person experiences himself as an alien. He has become, one might say, estranged from himself. He does not experience himself as the center of his world, as the creator of his own acts -- but his acts and their consequences have become his masters, whom he obeys, or whom he may even worship. The alienated person is out of touch with himself as he is out of touch with any other person. He, like the others, is experienced as things are experienced; with the senses and with common sense, but at the same time without being related to oneself and to the world outside positively.

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Colossians 1:21:
Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior.
(NIV)
And although you at one time were estranged and alienated from Him and were of hostile attitude of mind in your wicked activities
(AMP)
And you, that were sometime alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now hath he reconciled
(KJV)

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