Ex Best Friend
I'm standing in the dark
I've gotten use to not being seen
I wonder if you hear me screaming your name
Or if you notice that I'm slowly disappearing
When it comes to you I wish my eyes to be
Blind
Maybe then I it would be easier to
Believe your sweet lies
Or actually make myself believe that
In your eyes I'm the only one you see
My lips have become numb
So I sit quietly as if I'm dumb
But I feel it through your touch
I feel the resistance through your text
Soon I'll be the ex best friend
Because things got a little complicated on my end
I'm sorry for the day I saw you for you
Sorry for getting jealous when I realized
You admired the anatomy of a woman
Sorry for the day I fell in love with you
I know that wasn't part of the plan
But you told me it would be ok
That we could work through it and you wouldn't walk away
But ever since then
You look at me as if I'm poisonous
Like a belladonna plant
You don't wanna touch so you admire from afar
We live in the same city
And I still don't know where you are
How can you be so close but yet fell so far away
Are you that afraid of me
Or are you afraid of the feelings I have
Tell me what it is
That is keeping you from being the friend I once knew you to be
Do you want to be free of me
Is the question I guess I wanna ask
But I'm afraid of what your response may be
So I fake laughs as if everything is ok
But I know deep inside that our friendship
Is fading away
I'm just waiting for the day
So now I wait for the conversations
To get shorter
For your attitude to start to change
I wait for the texts to stop
For the day you won't remember my name
I know it's coming but right now
I'll appreciate every moment I get to
See you smile
I'll hug you longer
Because I never know if it will
Be the last time that we will be this close
The worse kind of hurt
Is the one you don't expect
I thought at least if we were friends
I wouldn't have to worry about neglect
But I was wrong
Friendships end to
I just never thought that friend would be you
Copyright © Adriane Harper | Year Posted 2018
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