Ex Best Friend

I'm standing in the dark I've gotten use to not being seen I wonder if you hear me screaming your name Or if you notice that I'm slowly disappearing When it comes to you I wish my eyes to be Blind Maybe then I it would be easier to Believe your sweet lies Or actually make myself believe that In your eyes I'm the only one you see My lips have become numb So I sit quietly as if I'm dumb But I feel it through your touch I feel the resistance through your text Soon I'll be the ex best friend Because things got a little complicated on my end I'm sorry for the day I saw you for you Sorry for getting jealous when I realized You admired the anatomy of a woman Sorry for the day I fell in love with you I know that wasn't part of the plan But you told me it would be ok That we could work through it and you wouldn't walk away But ever since then You look at me as if I'm poisonous Like a belladonna plant You don't wanna touch so you admire from afar We live in the same city And I still don't know where you are How can you be so close but yet fell so far away Are you that afraid of me Or are you afraid of the feelings I have Tell me what it is That is keeping you from being the friend I once knew you to be Do you want to be free of me Is the question I guess I wanna ask But I'm afraid of what your response may be So I fake laughs as if everything is ok But I know deep inside that our friendship Is fading away I'm just waiting for the day So now I wait for the conversations To get shorter For your attitude to start to change I wait for the texts to stop For the day you won't remember my name I know it's coming but right now I'll appreciate every moment I get to See you smile I'll hug you longer Because I never know if it will Be the last time that we will be this close The worse kind of hurt Is the one you don't expect I thought at least if we were friends I wouldn't have to worry about neglect But I was wrong Friendships end to I just never thought that friend would be you