I Will Beat You
I see nothing but emptiness when I look at myself
I lay in my bed at night, eyes wide
I am alone in my head
There are monsters screaming
Making me want to give in
Telling me to let it go you can’t do it you must give up
It’s too late for that
Do I let it all slip away?
Or let myself be scared to be alive?
The story I had to tell is not forgiving
The feeling of everyone knowing is overwhelming
They will feel sympathy for me
But sympathy… is the one thing I hate
I hate people feeling sorry for me
But it comes with this pain
Pain of feeling guilty, feeling scared
Why would I want people to feel sorry for me
They will see me differently
But I am no different know that you know
I am strong, and I can hold myself up
I will be strong when I feel like breaking
And when I feel like I can’t go on,
When no one else is there for me
I will rise up, I will push through
You will see that I don’t need you
You don’t scare me, I am stronger than you
And I will keep fighting until the end of my time
There will be times that I will be by myself
But I know that no matter how alone I feel
No matter how scared I am
I can make it through this
I have passed the demons of my mind
I can pass through anything
Copyright © Emily Tubbs | Year Posted 2017
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