Today I Feel Tomorrow I Forget
There's a depression running along with my blood today,
sadness, weakness, motionless... continuous.
The fire burns my skin from inside as I try to lighten up my mood - but the fire won't stay,
pain, sorrow, silence... ludicrous.
I acknowledge my hormones I can do nothing about,
I try to think - I beg to differ - I once again pray.
For, although it's mine, I want to execute same, will it work? I doubt,
May I forget the execution tomorrow - may that thought flow away?
Should I - may I - then again will I?
It's mine - it's a part of me - my definition and character of heart,
would I have the strength to watch those hormones of me die?
I do not know, nor do I know - where do I start?
Twenty four long hours I needed to go,
Thoughts, ideas, new possible outcomes... forgotten.
I am half way threw, still I do not know.
These astronomic, yet useless, dispute with myself, rotten.
No solution , no answer, only this depression running along,
I will leave it - I will accept it - for today I am who I am.
I will pray - I will beg to differ tomorrow - I will wish tomorrow strong,
I will sleep tonight - tomorrow forget - create a knew me, myself, and I fan.
Copyright © Noline Van As | Year Posted 2017
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