Today I Feel Tomorrow I Forget

There's a depression running along with my blood today, sadness, weakness, motionless... continuous. The fire burns my skin from inside as I try to lighten up my mood - but the fire won't stay, pain, sorrow, silence... ludicrous. I acknowledge my hormones I can do nothing about, I try to think - I beg to differ - I once again pray. For, although it's mine, I want to execute same, will it work? I doubt, May I forget the execution tomorrow - may that thought flow away? Should I - may I - then again will I? It's mine - it's a part of me - my definition and character of heart, would I have the strength to watch those hormones of me die? I do not know, nor do I know - where do I start? Twenty four long hours I needed to go, Thoughts, ideas, new possible outcomes... forgotten. I am half way threw, still I do not know. These astronomic, yet useless, dispute with myself, rotten. No solution , no answer, only this depression running along, I will leave it - I will accept it - for today I am who I am. I will pray - I will beg to differ tomorrow - I will wish tomorrow strong, I will sleep tonight - tomorrow forget - create a knew me, myself, and I fan.