Rest in peace dear friend
Dylan, it sucks that we lost you so early when I heard that you first passed away the only thing that fled my head was guilt.
Guilt ate me alive knowing that I could’ve messaged you while you were still here and made time to see you but now you’re not here you’ve disappeared, it’s a shame that I never got to say goodbye. I never got to say anything because I never tried, never tried to hit you up even even when you asked me how I was doing knowing the that I was going through you stuck around with me through it and I can’t thank you enough because you help me with everything that I was going through and the pain that I was suffering through, I will miss you so ing much I’ve known you since I was 12 years old and now I’m almost 24 that is the bear of bad news that I did not want to hear that Wednesday afternoon it ate me alive and it felt unreal to lose someone so close to me so surreal I wish you the best on your journey and many more you were a great friend to me and you help me out through so much more. I can never thank you enough for being in my life. Thank you for always being here with me. I hope now you’re watching over me like a guardian angel, spreading your wings I hope you laugh and cry as well knowing the pain but good memories that flew through my head the moment I got the phone call saying that you were dead. Cardiac arrest is so young to go through when you’re 25 years old and I can’t even imagine going to sleep and not waking up and nobody knows nobody knows that you just died in your sleep and the pain that that brought me deep deep deep down inside, knowing that you were confused and unaware of what was about to happen and that the Grim Reaper was about to take your life now we just wait for the second autopsy to know what really happened to my friend I wish you the best Dylan. God bless you love Jackie your ty friend, I really wish I could’ve been there for you and I hate myself for not not being there for the times that I should’ve been and I’m sorry for that and I can’t erase the pain that it has caused and it has brought back knowing that you were never not there for me even at my lowest of lows, you were always there to pick me up and that’s a low ing blow, I can’t wait to see you again up in heaven with all of our junkie friends I wish you the best and I hope you know how I felt at the end but it was too late to tell you as a friend I really hope you can see how much I regret that pain in the end. I’m sorry it ended like this Buddy I miss you and I miss our conversations but now it’s time to say bye to a close pal who I will never see again and learn the lesson I should’ve known while he was still alive again, always no matter what, check on your loved one and friends because life is too short and nobody steers far from the end and that is a bitter reality to accept but it’s a lesson I will never ing forget all thanks to my friend Dylan
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August 12. 1998
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