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Emily The Band Geek Poem
I wish upon a falling star to erase my past and remove my scars
I wish upon this blurring light for the bullying to end tonight
I wish upon the razor in my hand to end the tears and the pain within
I wish upon this rope I tie to end the suffering and strife
I wish upon this tree I climb to not make me fail this time
I wish upon this falling star to keep me here until the struggling stops
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2014
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I was sad and scared, in the middle of the silence, hanging on a string of blades
that is about to snap, a mirror in front of me, cries beneath me, depression was raging around me.
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2014
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I smile fading into the darkness of my room
quiet and unaware the feelings about to flee my head.
Being alone is one of my biggest fears
over thinking is the issue
silver coming out red, regrets and wishing I was dead,
hurting the ones I can't stand to see sad
it's not my fault the monsters in my head want me dead.
Craving my tears and full attention
being alone is a big fear of mine because
I can't ever trust my head it goes from thoughts
of happiness to wishing I was dead.
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2016
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The car door slamming shut
I knew what was about to occur
memories flew into my head
scattered like a scrapbook
I start to tear up
running fast towards the
hospital room, she was
already gone.
My face tear stained
as the world around me
stops. Silence is all I hear
as I say goodbye.
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2015
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Emily The Band Geek Poem
Drowning-
Sitting there nice and still slowly sinking
you smile as the strangers smile back confused and unaware
you were just drowning in your tears
one by one the words rip through your skin tearing you apart
limb by limb you try to stay up but the weights keep you down
your slowly drowning and nobody can help you now,
people think that the scars on your wrist has no meaning but
to you it means help, help us escape this water before
you go overboard and drown... drown form the blood and tears,
drown form the pain inside but nobody notices a thing
maybe that's how it's supposed to be, maybe I am supposed to be drowning
maybe I should just let go and sink. And nobody would notice a thing.
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2015
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We were two people in one world in a crowded and unsteady life, walking quietly out to Neverland. The only people we would ever see are miles behind us, mysterious and magical in the red light of the horizon.
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2014
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Wipe your tears you'll be all right
shake it off and smile for once in awhile
trust me honey you'll be alright so shake it off
and don't let go of him through the night
cause honey you'll regret when you let go,
he's one in a million, so is your life and your soul.
So honey shake it off and show your smile it only comes
every once in awhile.
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2015
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Emily The Band Geek Poem
I’m a dog stuck on a lease I’m stuck in this non release stupid thing why won’t let me go free?
Why don’t they care I got feelings too? And I can feel pain too I can’t leave the house cause he’s gonna get mad? Hitting me asking me to get up .why do you hurt me like this I thought you loved me but you like to see me black and blue in my face you hit my eye all the time I can’t leave I try everyday that he gets mad at me and snaps on the daily I even had someone to pick me up cus he found my phone slammed it onto a wall and didn’t let me call for help while he choked me on the floor while I’m begging for my life nobody helped me that night they ignored what happened and turned the blind eye that’s America tho wtf you expect from the American eyes he said don’t run away my trophy wife so now I’m stuck make him nice and proud by being what he wants me to be even if I’m not really happy
I even called my mom to help get me out the situation but she said I put myself there and gotta figure out my own solution but why you just wanna see struggle why would you let him hit me and take his side in everything?
She said that I’m a crazy bi tch cause she wanna up my mental she tryna keep me clear from my whole family tryna get them to turn cus my bipolar 2 is worsening
I don’t wanna leave him to I’m stuck I feel groomed and I can get up but what’s the point I’m alone in the world no friends and all, family was supposed to be family but they never helped and came through for me they wanna me to rot and try to get my own help
I can’t really leave him he really won’t let me he chains up my brain like it’s on a fu cking leashe I can’t escape I feel like if I do I’m gonna be alone on my own with nothing and I don’t wanna feel that pain again, not having not even a friend but Atleast around that time my family was around but now my bipolar got worse nobody wants me around except for the one person who put me on a tight rope I can’t break so now I feel reliant on them he gonna help me out one day I am my fathers daughter so I can definitely change him only issue is as much I wanna believe that’s true, I can’t change someone I’ve been tryna change for 3 years I have to lie to myself that I’m happy and stable in this toxic ass house just pray one day I make it out I spill my guts to get it out please don’t come at me and call me a clown cus I get it I feel as stupid as people think I am now they killed me inside and now I’m a walking piece of rotting flesh on the inside out
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2024
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I’m hanging on a rope of lies hanging on for dear life.
I don’t know what got me today but I gotta let go this rope is cutting me, deep in my hands with small glass shards ripping through my skin like a fiber glass patch.
Cutting into your skin eating you alive you are hanging on the rope of lies but how many days will you have to hang on when it’s easier to let go.
If I let go to the rope of lies I’ll fall into a black bliss oblivion under my feet tonight it would be easier and it will make both lives easy but for the sake of loving someone I can’t let go in fear of losing everything.
The rope is cutting deeper and deeper into the skin it’s cutting me open alive this killing me within. I’m just let it go and lose everything I came to know expect the worst and hopefully get the best just let go and deal with the consequences but just to never again grab on to a rope of lies ever again because if you grab the rope again you’ll be on that for a long time cus once you grab onto the rope of lies to get down it’s gonna be a hard fu cking time down you gotta face reality at the end of the fall and for some reason I can’t handle that at all.
Just like the rope with the Razors making your hands bleed deep the rope of lies is worse it makes you fall into the unknown the razors on the rope is bullying in itself and you can let go of a bully better than letting go of a lie you are hiding from someone you know Remember that when your mind goes blank and flat to never hang on to the rope of lies it will tie you in and sometimes it will never let you leave again
Copyright © Emily The Band Geek | Year Posted 2024
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Dylan, it sucks that we lost you so early when I heard that you first passed away the only thing that fled my head was guilt.
Guilt ate me alive knowing that I could’ve messaged you while you were still here and made time to see you but now you’re not here you’ve disappeared, it’s a shame that I never got to say goodbye. I never got to say anything because I never tried, never tried to hit you up even even when you asked me how I was doing knowing the that I was going through you stuck around with me through it and I can’t thank you enough because you help me with everything that I was going through and the pain that I was suffering through, I will miss you so ing much I’ve known you since I was 12 years old and now I’m almost 24 that is the bear of bad news that I did not want to hear that Wednesday afternoon it ate me alive and it felt unreal to lose someone so close to me so surreal I wish you the best on your journey and many more you were a great friend to me and you help me out through so much more. I can never thank you enough for being in my life. Thank you for always being here with me. I hope now you’re watching over me like a guardian angel, spreading your wings I hope you laugh and cry as well knowing the pain but good memories that flew through my head the moment I got the phone call saying that you were dead. Cardiac arrest is so young to go through when you’re 25 years old and I can’t even imagine going to sleep and not waking up and nobody knows nobody knows that you just died in your sleep and the pain that that brought me deep deep deep down inside, knowing that you were confused and unaware of what was about to happen and that the Grim Reaper was about to take your life now we just wait for the second autopsy to know what really happened to my friend I wish you the best Dylan. God bless you love Jackie your ty friend, I really wish I could’ve been there for you and I hate myself for not not being there for the times that I should’ve been and I’m sorry for that and I can’t erase the pain that it has caused and it has brought back knowing that you were never not there for me even at my lowest of lows, you were always there to pick me up and that’s a low ing blow, I can’t wait to see you again up in heaven with all of our junkie friends I wish you the best and I hope you know how I felt at the end but it was too late to tell you as a friend I really hope you can see how much I regret that pain in the end. I’m sorry it ended like this Buddy I miss you and I miss our conversations but now it’s time to say bye to a close pal who I will never see again and learn the lesson I should’ve known while he was still alive again, always no matter what, check on your loved one and friends because life is too short and nobody steers far from the end and that is a bitter reality to accept but it’s a lesson I will never ing forget all thanks to my friend Dylan
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August 12. 1998
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March 20 2024
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