And They Were All Lies
By: Kelvalyn Arbizu
Feelings of insanity breach through my core
The path I travel is wearisome, I feel I need much more.
You left my world so dismal but I couldn’t be weak and cry.
You used me and abused me and I don’t know the reason why.
The poster child for deception, the perfect paradigm.
I thought you really loved me but now I see that was a whim.
And while I was lost inside your deceit, I forgot just who I was.
My only desire was your attention because I was in love.
All I had was love and I gave my soul to you
But now all I’m left with is depression inside my spirit through and through.
And it hurts to think back, when I took time in vain.
Before my heart stopped beating, before I felt this pain.
You are Constant torture in my mind, a bullet to my soul.
Because You entered me completely and overtook control.
You shattered my identity and it only took one second.
Because I would do anything just to gain your affection.
Not knowing what to do, I walk day by day.
I don’t know where I’m going so, I just carve my way.
And Try to find a fantasy in a unknown reality.
I’m Running steadfast to a make-believe without calamity.
Obstacles embed me, leaving their dirty marks.
And I feel that I have been defeated by your deadly art.
I’ve witnessed this catastrophe first hand; my very soul decaying…
To think, I loved you fully and dreamed of always staying.
I now hold resentment and it’s all because of you.
All men are dogs, and you are walking, living proof.
Faithful until the end…yet the end arose so quick.
I feel my poor heart bleeding and it started with a prick.
All I ever wanted was your love, was that so hard to ask.
Was is too hard for you? Was it a difficult task?
And if it was why did you stay and not just say goodbye.
You said you loved and cared for me.
And they were all just lies.
Copyright © Kelvalyn Arbizu | Year Posted 2006
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