The Fear
So scared of changes
Don't want idiots rearranging my life
I've been this way since I was a child
My head is confused my mind makes me feel mentally abused
They say they want to assess me but I'm no fake
Realising my only income and freedom is at stake
Bad thoughts and images run through my brain
Not knowing how things will turn out is driving me insane
My fears are justified I won't have anyone tell me that I've lied
I don't want this medical examination being prodded and poked
Don't want some doctor laughing at me like I'm some kind of joke
I do not choose to be this way but you are just you they all say
I wished I could see into my future but I know that cannot be
Hoping and praying they will see I'm genuine
Being mentally ill is not a sin
I'm screaming inside hoping the doctors will understand
Can't take any more of their stupid demands
Please don't make me bend don't make me stand
The fear is on the surface
The fear is in my heart
The fear is all around my mind
Please have compassion and be kind
Dreading what may come of me
Forced back in to work when I am sick forced back in to society
Please see that this is me and that my fears do control me.
Copyright © Aimee Neate | Year Posted 2011
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