The Fear

So scared of changes Don't want idiots rearranging my life I've been this way since I was a child My head is confused my mind makes me feel mentally abused They say they want to assess me but I'm no fake Realising my only income and freedom is at stake Bad thoughts and images run through my brain Not knowing how things will turn out is driving me insane My fears are justified I won't have anyone tell me that I've lied I don't want this medical examination being prodded and poked Don't want some doctor laughing at me like I'm some kind of joke I do not choose to be this way but you are just you they all say I wished I could see into my future but I know that cannot be Hoping and praying they will see I'm genuine Being mentally ill is not a sin I'm screaming inside hoping the doctors will understand Can't take any more of their stupid demands Please don't make me bend don't make me stand The fear is on the surface The fear is in my heart The fear is all around my mind Please have compassion and be kind Dreading what may come of me Forced back in to work when I am sick forced back in to society Please see that this is me and that my fears do control me.