Sleepless
Another night, no sleep ,
With my white devil friend.
How am I here again?
This place, ed up place,
Half way between life and death.
I’ve lost all the control,
It makes me so sad.
Rail thin, hollow faced
Is all I see looking back.
Mirrors never lie?
They can only show truth .
You have a strong hold
I’m Not sure I can break
It’s all a love, hate.
I want it, I don’t
But I do, I need you
Despise you, you.
Brain is a mess,
Don’t know what to do now
With or without you.
I just don’t know how to.
I should try to lie down,
Haha that’s a joke.
You white devil
My ever present and faithless friend
I’m falling far and deep in a chasm
Again and again!
I’m hiding
I’m crying
I feel like dying
How in
Am I here again?
I simply don’t know
Which way do I go?
I do want to climb
Back out of this hole.
But I’m so afraid,
It’s a fear I know well.
I’m tired, exhausted
I’m broken, ed up
Theres only one who can help
Its just me, just myself.
I’ve lost all my courage
There is nothing at all.
My faithless white devil,
You’ve stolen my soul.
Copyright © Crissia Bullock | Year Posted 2022
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