On My Own
On My Own
On My Own
I caught a glimmer of fate in your eyes and you looked away
Then looked past me like you had no choice but to exit this demention
Never once did you consider me always there waiting to catch you
You walked along the edge of your life seemingly with no regrets Confident with your intention
But you questioned why I ran away couldn't stay
Why I didn't wait only to say one more time good-bye...
And looking back on that time so long ago
It seems that I was not the only one of us to take flight
Loving you had taught me well how to detatch to disengage
You pushed me down the road of freedom towards independence
Because you knew even then
Still even dead you're unable to completly stay away
Seems like your hiding out in the deepest corners of my room
Coming in through the darkness of my imaginatation to comfort me
To remind me of who I used to be
The way I looked seen through your eyes
I'll never look that good again
That golden haired girl who captivated you doesn't exist anymore
She's buried with your body slowly turning into ash and dust
Now as I stand here on my own
Trying to light this torch I once carried for you
Your ghost still haunts me
and
I cherish this pain which taunts me
And
I hate myself a little more
For being unable to save you
From your self
copyright 1996 suzanna smith aka Jaded
Copyright © Suzanna Smith | Year Posted 2022
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