On My Own

On My Own On My Own I caught a glimmer of fate in your eyes and you looked away Then looked past me like you had no choice but to exit this demention Never once did you consider me always there waiting to catch you You walked along the edge of your life seemingly with no regrets Confident with your intention But you questioned why I ran away couldn't stay Why I didn't wait only to say one more time good-bye... And looking back on that time so long ago It seems that I was not the only one of us to take flight Loving you had taught me well how to detatch to disengage You pushed me down the road of freedom towards independence Because you knew even then Still even dead you're unable to completly stay away Seems like your hiding out in the deepest corners of my room Coming in through the darkness of my imaginatation to comfort me To remind me of who I used to be The way I looked seen through your eyes I'll never look that good again That golden haired girl who captivated you doesn't exist anymore She's buried with your body slowly turning into ash and dust Now as I stand here on my own Trying to light this torch I once carried for you Your ghost still haunts me and I cherish this pain which taunts me And I hate myself a little more For being unable to save you From your self copyright 1996 suzanna smith aka Jaded