I will always be a Confidential Human source for the Federal Bureau of investigation from Arlington heights Illinois I can't change that always a target I am unashamed fearing for my safety most of the time writing poetry helps me cope with my lifelong chronic PTSD resulting from my wearing wires pregnant for the FBI many years in hiding broken suffering in silence until my nervous break down on my government job crippling me severe anxiety disorder panic attacks panic disorder coping with forever hearing my fetus heartbeat I thank god for my poetry it saved my life I am American an International Poet and playwrite grew up in Chicago as a child attenting Joseph Medill school of journalism finally married Military stationed in Augsburg Germany relocating to Munich Germany attending writers workshops on Mcgraw Kaserne of Munich working as a daycare teacher for USAF of Munich Germany reading short stories translating nursery rhymes an Army wife raising two little girls abroad taking them to work with me was a plus they loved being in my class I became an adult in Germany just an Army wife my home town became Marienplatz Frauenkirche Ourlady of Munich where local lores says the devil left his footprint the teusfelstrit town of Mother Mary Writers Town of Thomas Mann inspiring my playwriting and children stories poetry and song strong interest in theology the gospel of Mary I Retired from the Defense Department Macdill Airforce base in Tampa currently living in Florida married to my wonderful husband Vietnan Veteran Anthony Nicholsen I am a proud Lifetime member of the Military order of the Purple heart Amvets Paralyzed Veterans American legions Veterans helping Veterans in Lakeland Fl and Tampa I have written thousands of poems several manuscripts songs and children books I enjoy singing in the Choir I am a Holy Woman of God and I adore being a writer.