Just Tell Me

My heart beats hard in my chest, Each breath becomes more shallow, I can feel every vein pumping, Pumping, The blood around my body, Im waiting, Waiting, For you to decide my fate, Just send the message so that I can deflate, I cry inside, My eyes feel warm, Yet no tears come, I feel my heart pumping, Pumping, Keeping me alive, I wish it would just stop, I hate the anticipation, I know whats coming, Im just waiting, Waiting, For you to tell me, It’s the same every time, Every frickin time, You come make me whole, Then leave me broken, Again, again and again, The blood runs too fast, Too fast around my body, I need to cut it out, When you have a tumour, You cut it out, This is my tumour, It needs to be let out, And set me free, Cut and let the blood flow, Cut and let go.