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Tamlyn Shrouder Poem
I close my eyes, and I think where did you go?
I open and all I see is thick white snow.
I’m cold and can’t breathe,
until you walk over and you hold me.
You make me warm. You make me feel fine.
I want this moment to last till the end of time.
You smile down at me, and say 'I love you'.
All I do is stand there and hold you.
I look back up straight into your eyes, and say
'I wanna be with you for the rest of my life'.
You promised me you would never leave.
Danny why did you lie to me?
I miss you. You need to be here.
We still have so much more to share.
You don't answer me. You just stand there and stare.
I turn around and say 'this really isn't fair'.
Ever since you left all I wanna do is cry.
Why did you do it? Why did you choose to die?
You still just stand there as I watch cold tears build up in your eyes.
Then you fall to your knees and start an uncontrollable cry.
I sit down next to you and lift up your head.
You looked straight at me and you said.
'Im sorry I never meant for you to feel this way.
I just couldn't stay in this horrible place'.
'It was getting too hard. I couldn't deal with this pain'.
Then over us it starts to gently rain.
Don't leave me Danny. You haven't told me why.
If you just told me I could have saved your life.
Now I’m stuck with your unfinished pain.
I have enough to deal with. Don't you get it 'life isn't a game'.
You slowly start to get to your feet.
As it starts to snow you cover me with a thin white sheet.
You say 'Please you need to try and understand'.
You need to realize this was never planned.
”I love you and I’m thankful we were good mates.
I can understand you’re filled with so much anger and hate”
“But hang in there. I believe in you.
You have so much to give this world, you truly do”.
You then say 'I’m sorry I have to leave'. I yell;
'No Danny please don't leave me' PLEASE!
Then my eyes open, I’m lying in my bed.
Did all that really happen? Or was it all just in my head?
Did you really come and say goodbye?
Or was it just me making up an unfinished lie?
It felt so real. Well that's how it seemed.
Danny did you really come and see me or was it just a dream?
Copyright © Tamlyn Shrouder | Year Posted 2007
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Tamlyn Shrouder Poem
I'm angry and I'm sad
I'm tired and I'm mad
I'm alone and I'm hurt
I'm forgetting what I'm worth
You never see me,
you never hear me or know when I'm feeling down
My emotions are all mixed up,
all thrown around
I thought you’d protect me, I thought you’d stop his game
But yet you saw straight through my tears
you caused me more pain
I hate you, there I said it, I hate you
But to say I have that someone,
damn I love, I love you
I'm lost, I'm confused
You’re causing me pain, but I feel I need you,
I'm being used
I hate you there I said it, I really hate you
But I need you, oh I need you, I love you
why can't you love me?
Copyright © Tamlyn Shrouder | Year Posted 2007
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I sat down to write,
And it took me all night,
But there was something I needed to say,
Something I couldn’t put into words till this day.
Poetry can be hard,
Cause I let down my guard.
But for you I’ll try,
Till my pen runs dry.
Because I love you more than words can say,
Though our relationship was sort of gray.
We clung to each other in a final goodbye,
And as you walked away I had no tears to cry.
But you left me in this world alone
I just want you to come back home
for these tears flow so free
It’s so unlike me…
Every single song I hear,
About losing someone dear,
Reminds me of you,
I really miss you.
I feel my heart breaking,
As my hands start shaking.
I’m breaking down,
Without a sound.
I just curl up and make myself small,
As the tears are beginning to fall
I miss your caring touch,
Loving you hurts so much.
One last kiss,
And one last embrace,
I’d do anything to see your face
Maybe one day you can tell me why
Why you never said goodbye.
Then you’ll smile, and I’ll wave
And we’ll pretend it’s all ok
Copyright © Tamlyn Shrouder | Year Posted 2007
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Tamlyn Shrouder Poem
Once upon a time, I knew a happy little girl
She had gorgeous sea blues eyes, which looked better then pearls
She was a happy young girl, her life was so very perfect
On my very down days, I picture her and reflect
As her life was great for a five-year-old,
nothing could go wrong
Her life was like a beautiful unwritten love song
She would dance, sing, laugh and play
Who would have thought all of this could be taken away?
This little girl has grown up now, I wonder where can she be?
But the harsh reality is, she is deep within me
She has forgotten who she was, and sadly who she is
For that five-year-old girl she truly does miss
Where is that smile?
The laughter?
That cheeky little grin?
It has to be somewhere, it must still be deep within
So I’ll fight for my friend to submerge again
But for now my tears will continue to fall, as unseen pain.
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I’m sorry I was never there to watch you both grow;
I want you both to know
I love you and I will miss you heaps,
god only knows how much you both mean to me
I hope you two grow up proud,
and never be ashamed to speak out loud
Please don't just throw your lives away,
Jesse please tell your sister you love her every day
You need to take care of her and stay by her side,
please be that big brother that will love her for the rest of her life
I know what its like to lose your brother,
not only him I have lost you because of your mother
Please don't blame her she has the right,
just her and mum had an unforgivable fight
And Abby, I know we never got to talk much
but I still remember when we first touched
I want you both to follow your heart and chase your dreams,
just remember it can be done no matter how hard it seems
I love you both so very much
I wish I could just have one more hug
Take care of your mum for me,
I miss you lots
love your auntie
Copyright © Tamlyn Shrouder | Year Posted 2007
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