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Bernice Makotanyane Poem
Judge me not so shall I
Hold me down so will I
Love me now so will I till forever
Promise nothing and I will not expect
Vow not to me but to the heavens above
Shower not what we could grow to be but what we are
Look at me not in the eye of what you wish I'd be but what I am,
Have no condition loving me
Have no expectation of what I must be and,
Dream not of tomorrow but of what's in sight
Love me not at a distance but close you
Hold me like it's your last
Kiss me like my lips are to be torn off my face and,
Create no memories to look back at for everyday is a memory re-carrying
Look not back at our love but live it,
Own your throne that's my heart and so will I mine as yours,
Let this be a ruling till we meet our death
Let this be a love unspoken but a love lived
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For a while I thought of love's never existence in me
I thought of its genesis being the first and last for me
But now I feel like I'm at a retake of a love undying and a new thought addiction
Somehow it feels like an addiction deja vu
The thoughts and dreams I had with a man I never knew
I feel like a feast of him in my forever word filled life
It's in how he fills the blanks of my love's desire
The way he fills the blanks of my unwritten poems
It's in the little movements and expressions he seems to put to action when with me
I remember how he felt on my love dehydrated skin
How he held and handled me
His breath and sweat on me
And the spit in the comfort of his lips
I swear for a moment I wanted to dive in -
Dive in with no heart nor soul protection for I trusted his handling
Oh my! I saved myself from the slavery of the thoughts of him
His warmth and countless kisses
Where's my heart at?
Where are my thoughts in this trip of love waves and sails?
Am I already deep in this ocean or right beside the shore with hopes not to drown?
It feels deep already for the questions I had already answered
Flashbacks of his intimate company continues to shower my mind
Flashforwards already in take
And the words come to mind,
I've reached revelation
I fell in love
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Bernice Makotanyane Poem
Moonwalking solar energy,
An eclipse above my head,
I dared myself to dream of you
Reminiscing behind time of a love we used to share,
I vowed to never drop another tear thinking of you but,
I sure loved you to death,
A Juliet I was gifted,
But love is never enough,
And it hurts knowing that it's all I have
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Bernice Makotanyane Poem
I wrote poems and sang songs to make the love I had more alive
Wrote endless passages tryina explain what my heart sang
I tried the best I could to make the words I said more meaningful
Stayed up at night tryina find ways to hold and touch you right
I paused every moment I had with you
Shut the whole world out for there was you
I begged and I prayed that I find ways to love you right
Asked for the strength to be there for you
I stayed even when my heart ached from the looks they gave you
Saw the thirst in their eyes whenever they looked at you
I knew some would know how to touch you and some, to hold you
But again, I knew neither would love you like I did
They had all the right words to say
Had all the right ways to feed what you long desired
And I knew you'd easily fall for you stayed with me who couldn't
Even though you said I was all you needed, I knew you needed more
I saw how happy you got when with them, a happy I never saw reflect when with me
I know I sparked a certain happy in you but it was never as long
I still hope I could, that I could love you just as you wish
But again I'm still the same person, the me that I was if not better
And deep in my heart, my love whispers your name
Once more longing to keep you.
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She's a lioness a protector and a fighter
She guards her offsprings with all her heart and soul
She takes bullets without hesitation
She jumps in without thinking of possibilities of a sink or die
She lives for her family
She lives to love and nurturer
Then one day the sun didn't shine
Her will and her power was tested
All armies came against
Wounded and cursed her soul
For her offsprings it was fear that coated them
Living in a shadow of what could happen next
But in that state of mind
One saw a strength none of them dared to see
She chanted and cheered her mother as she saw her lose it
She knew that all things come to pass
Knew that all happenings had a sense of learning
The lioness looked at her own and saw a reflection of her
She saw a someone who'd make it if she didn't
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Bernice Makotanyane Poem
An emotion I caught at 16
A feeling I want not to come back if not with he
A love that never quiet escapes my mind
How nolstagic my reality has become
Reminiscing on times we once were
The dreams and promises we shared
A memory that forever marks its once was joy in a heart I gave away
To him, and once a woman I fell helplessly for
One who marked her residence in my lovesick heart
And provoked a depth of love I never knew existed in me
A memory that brings a smile on my blur face still
Two souls I call my lovestory
A tale I proudly speak in delight about
Even though life chose neither for me,
I still believe in love for I met it in both
My two lights, the Sun and Moon
Ones who reside joy and forever mark my heart
Like the rivers meet the seas, and eventually the oceans,
So does my heart for theirs, and eventually to a love infinite.
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Here's to all the beauties yet lived and had
My rain in the drought and my sun in the rain
Saying goodbye to a past so amazingly manifested,
'Goodbye to a life beautifully captured
Moments hardly erased and,
A nolstagic record of all things delight
I heard my heart break from my back being turned against.
A smile seems far distant from where these memories reside
Sadness seems to clothe itself as coat
Had I known I would've took some love to last me through these winds of June
Winds so cold my heart froze -
Where is I to shelter it when home took a turn against,
where is I to keep warm a heart that longs to live and,
where is I to capture another lifetime of love and delight when my someone unvowed herself to be mine forever?
I feel my soul cry with no purpose nor drive,
I feel myself die with no life to live.
Is a dream had unworthy of chance of possibility?
Is love had and so intensely desired not worth a chance?
My soul questions with no sign of an answer,
My heart longs with no chance of having and my mind battles with thoughts of how beautiful it could be
So why is I denied a chance to such?
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Fake and crooked smiles
Judgement and conditional love all I ever knew
Broken promises and lies what I fed my heart and soul with
Then you came
For the first I found someone real
Someone true and safe to be
Your smile true and warm
Your love sweet and comforting
And in the winds of June,
Your love keeps me warm
In the wars of the world your loyalty protects me
And in starvation and thirst,
Your love feeds and hydrates me -
What a love yours is
Had I known, I would've spared myself for you
Had I known, I would've stayed waiting
For the love I knew robbed and scorned me -
I no longer believed
Loving became a helpless living
Loving became slavery and suicide until your path crossed mine
You are like a Messiah to my heart,
Salvation to my mind
And to my soul you reside poems never spoken
Your love, your smile
All I ever dreamt of but never found
To see you is to believe that dreams and wishes do come true,
Eventually
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Mind full, Titanic
Mayday from thoughts that flew
A slow sink from a cloud that destructively fell
A loud bang from thoughts resisted
A window broke no move
Passengers of the past terrorize and flee
And in sorrow the titanic goes
With its own gone and forgotten
And as the waters bury what's left of them
A new wave came
Along with a sailor to rebirth what's dead
And a while it took for them to resurface
But the sinking became a float
A float that now resists to sink
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Planet diving the galaxy,
Moon shoes on it's a moonwalk,
Give me love and show me love,
You can tag along on this trip,
We can gaze the universe for fun,
Count the moons for time,
We can have the whole of worlds to ourselves,
We can reach if we believe,
Teleport to places no one has ever been,
Birth beauties of reality and reside in manifestations of will
Copyright © Bernice Makotanyane | Year Posted 2018
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