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Kelly Dickinson Poem
They say a mothers love is the strongest?
They say the bond between mother and daughter
can’t be broken?
You walked along the street, never looking behind
I was 5, but knew, we could not rewind
You were gone, leaving me alone
What would happen, would you change your mind
A letter, a visit, or just phone?
No fight for your first born
My young heart was left torn
You looking forward to your new life
My dad alone, without his wife
Now a lover to his best friend
Was this a bad dream that would soon end?
Years passed with little contact
I tried to forgive, make an effort
But you had two others and I had lost you forever
You were my mum, yet still a stranger
I now have a son, my pride and joy
And our bond will never break, nor be destroyed
Cause a mothers love is the strongest, except for a few
I guess I was unlucky, but you were too
Thirty five years missed, forgotton memories, no regrets
I hope he was worth it, cause I have my dad
And his love is the best.
Copyright © Kelly Dickinson | Year Posted 2018
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Kelly Dickinson Poem
Who am I?
I’m a mother, daughter, wife, and friend,
I’m a workmate, although sometimes have to pretend
To be happy, smile, have fun
At times I just want to hide, maybe run
From people, work, situations,
I don’t know why, there are no explanations
I don’t like confrontations
Is this normal?
Other times life is great, happy and lots of fun,
Plenty laughs, parties, time with my favourite son
Cosy nights in, and a wee bit of loving
Until the teenager walks in and we’re all left blushing!
We all have our daily routines,
Work, dinner, housework, you know the scene
Winter makes us lazy, stay indoors, watch telly
Rubbish weather, eat lots and fill our belly
I can’t wait for spring, light nights, a wee bit sunshine
More family time, outdoors with a glass of wine
This feels normal.
I know who I am. I’m a person who hates the dark,
The winter, it makes me sad, lazy, uninspired
I go to work, but can’t be bothered, too tired
Its not lack of sleep, and I love my job,
But I want to go back to bed, be a slob
I need warmth, cocktails, a swimming pool
Factor 30, a sun hat and food that makes me drool
Well I will have to wait, its not holiday time yet
Woman up, give myself a shake and grab my headset
Put that smile on, be happy and don’t hide
From the awkward customers and workmates, and decide
Where will I book – Turkey or Crete
Somewhere with soft sand for under my feet
That will cheer me up, something to look forward to
I don’t need to pretend, I know I’ll get through
The next few months till I can get a break
Away with the family, memories to make
Copyright © Kelly Dickinson | Year Posted 2018
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A New Year I said, a new me
Focus on work, health and my family
My beautiful boy, who brings so much joy
To my incomplete life.
Then I met you, out of the blue
Too soon to be thinking about falling for you?
Handsome, chatty, you made me smile
This feels great and its been a while!
Since I laughed, with a man
Disappointments, heartache - is there a game plan?
Dancing, drinking, a one night stand?
Or something more, something real
Would he understand
The luggage I carry, its a bit unique
Could he handle it, or would he be gone
by the end of the week
Mistakes have been made, I’ve loved and lost
No point looking back, just keep my fingers crossed
That this could be the start of a new chapter
One of happiness, love and laughter
He has my number - will he call?
Am I setting myself up for another fall?
Dreaming, I long to be in your arms for eternity
To feel your lips on mine, to have you love me
I give you my heart, my soul and will never cheat
And in return, come and make my life complete.
Copyright © Kelly Dickinson | Year Posted 2018
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Quiet! Everything around is too loud
I can’t stand to be in this crowd
Their voices go silent but I can still see their mouths moving
They’re giggling, obviously find something amusing
Are they laughing at me? Why? What are they saying?
I can feel my body swaying
I need to get out of here now, right now
What can I say, what reason can I use
Will they think I’m just making up an excuse
To leave. Will they know that I don’t want to be there
I nod hoping that he will notice, see my glare
Next thing I know I’m in bed, how did I get there?
Its dark in here, silent, peaceful
No-one judging, talking, staring
What’s happening to me
Why is no-one caring
My head feels heavy, my heart is pounding
I feel like screaming, I feel like I’m drowning
Is this what happens when your depressed?
I don’t know its never happened to me
Am I lazy? Miserable? Crabbit?
Why can’t I smile? I don’t understand it
Trauma they say. Loved ones leaving
Causing an empty space. Am I just grieving?
My list comprises of:
Mother=gone
Gran=gone
Baby girls=gone
Time for help? How do I cope? Will it work?
I need to try, can’t stay like this or I’ll go berserk
He helps, shows support, my rock
Do it for him, my love, go talk
They say it helps, talking to strangers
I’m scared, nervous, this is a life changer
Will I find the old me, is she still there, or gone
Please stay with me, get me through this, don’t move on
My heart is big, loves a lot, but gets broken
I wish I could be outspoken
But I suffer in silence, hoping you will know
See the signs, my mood, my slow tempo
Its not easy, living with me, like this
But please just hold me, tell me it will be ok, give me a kiss
The day comes, the start, time to tell
What’s been happening, my hell
I nearly died, I tell the whole script
How I lay on my bed, in pain, how I slipped
Into darkness, alone, is it time to go?
My life had only just got better, then the blow
I’m lying on a bed, a bright light coming towards me
Not yet! Then he stops me. Its ok, you’re free
You’ve been in mourning, a child, a survival
Time to get strong but not today
Come back, talk more about the deprival
Of you’re life. Its going to be okay
He was my saviour, changed my outlook
I got a job, made new friends, got married
Now I’m writing a book
About me. Who will read it? Do I care?
I’m stronger now, but still aware
Of the signs. They never leave
But they’re in a box now, and I do believe
There’s no more darkness in my life, only joy
Thanks to the love and support of my two boys
Copyright © Kelly Dickinson | Year Posted 2018
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