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Alyssa Hernandez Poem
Lying can have many feelings
You can feel it in a song; one you know can’t possibly be real because who is ever really that in love with another person?
You can feel it when you try on clothes after coming off an
“I love my body so much”, self-love high, and realizing maybe two sizes up would look better.
You can also feel it when you hold the hands of your long-time lover; a person you’ve spent three years of your life with and you just keep counting down the hours until they leave.
You can definitely feel it in the kiss goodbye and exchanged “I love you’s”.
That night as I sat in your car
And listened to your voice
I didn’t hear lies
Your genuine words carried my body, mind and soul
It felt like a waltz
You spoke in ¾ and I followed every measure, every beat
Made sure I was following your tempo
But then,
The music stopped
The time; however, didn’t
It was almost time for the music to end
But it wasn’t goodbye without
A kiss
I let myself get consumed in you—
It was as if my mind wandered
And my lips took charge
But we were off beat
And your touch felt like coloring outside the lines
And your hands made my body feel like a Ouija board;
What was the answer you were so desperate to find?
I never knew lies could feel physical
I always believed your soul could feel them,
But not your body.
Your kisses down my neck felt like
The kind of lies you get away with
And feel no remorse
I heard all the words I could handle,
And left you with blank spaces,
Before the lies could turn
Pathological.
Copyright © Alyssa Hernandez | Year Posted 2018
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Alyssa Hernandez Poem
I’ve known you more than
Forever
But lately it feels like we
Never met
On that warm March night
Under the stars and in that overbearing feeling of
Forced awkward small talk and politeness.
Who have you become?
Who have I become?
Those days we’ve bathed in our love
Can be counted on both hands but
The feelings of guilt,
Anger, frustration,
Fear of not being enough,
Immense emotional pain and
Worst of all
The need for this all to end
The want for a life without
Us
Can be counted by the stars
We were under
With that overbearing feeling of forced awkward small talk
And politeness.
ANH
Copyright © Alyssa Hernandez | Year Posted 2016
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Alyssa Hernandez Poem
There were days where it felt like the air
Was thin and my lungs strained for even an
Ounce of oxygen
Or the days where the water in the shower
Singed my skin no matter how cold I turned
The handle
Yet the days to come after I met you,
Turned completely around.
My lungs now flourished with air
And the burn scars on my skin have now
Diminished
You’ve made my life livable,
And you are my comfort.
ANH
Copyright © Alyssa Hernandez | Year Posted 2016
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Alyssa Hernandez Poem
In all honesty.
I guess I never did really know you.
I knew the basics:
Your favorite colors,
Your favorite rapper,
Your height,
Your fears,
And even some secrets
But what I didn’t know was
How your face looked after waking up in the morning
Or
Your reaction to awkward sex scenes in movies
Or even
The way you walk down the halls in school
I’ll never know this
I’ll never know what you think about late at night
When the world is asleep and
Its only you and your mind
I’ll never know what makes you cry,
Or what makes you laugh.
I never got to know you.
You never let me in.
ANH
Copyright © Alyssa Hernandez | Year Posted 2016
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Alyssa Hernandez Poem
He took my breath away.
And I’m not one to complain,
But the fact that my lungs were so tight,
Writhing and searching for an ounce
Of air
Made me realize
He was no good for me.
How could he be so lethal
In a body so life-giving
With a demeanor of warmth and existential kindness.
He was no good,
And I should’ve stayed away.
But like a spinning wheel
I did more than just prick my finger.
This boy murdered me.
And I’m the one who gave him my throat.
It’s all over now.
He’s in my veins,
He’s in my blood,
He’s in my lungs.
ANH
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Alyssa Hernandez Poem
I guess I didn't realize how much of an
impact you made in my life.
How your laugh was more contagious than
a yawn, or how your hugs felt like coming
home to your warm bed from a long road
trip.
I guess I didn't realize how incredibly
strong our friendship was even from two
different worlds.
I guess I didn't realize being different
and from those distant worlds, our perfect
life would tear apart.
The one where you're by my side
and I'm by yours.
Like it always had been.
I guess I just now realized you helped me
grow.
I hope you finally realize that I'm sorry and
that I tried.
I tried.
I really tried.
Copyright © Alyssa Hernandez | Year Posted 2016
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