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because…
the hardware store
owner smirked
when he collected
my money order
to pay the utility bill
to get the lights turned
back on.
because…
I slept on a worn out
mattress on the floor,
in a bedroom shared
with my older brother
who brutalized me for
sport, in a trailer on the
edge of a sugar beat field.
because…
I was so naïve as a
teenage boy that I was
completely ignorant of a
product called deodorant,
that I often wondered why
people who weren’t being
polite, usually gave me a
wide berth.
because…
on the school bus one day,
a friend from ninth grade,
David Fullington, said:
“hey Dan, everyone says you smell…
and I say-like crap he does!”
because…
I would lay on my mattress
at night and hear the legions
of mice scampering across
the aluminum ceiling and
between the walls of the trailer
on the edge of a sugar beat field.
because…
of all of the mouse turds
I would have to brush off
my clothes in my underwear
drawer when I was getting
dressed for school.
that is why,
when I was thirteen,
I discovered a mouse
trapped neck deep in an
open can of Crisco
sitting beside a sink full
of dirty dishes.
looking up at me,
with black dots for eyes,
and his nose twitching,
struggling to free himself,
but hopelessly mired
in the can of lard fat.
that I gulped down
the last of my Pepsi Cola
in the 16 ounce heavy,
greenish glass bottle,
and used the blunt end
to plunge the mouse under
for good to die a death of
torment and suffocation
in it’s Crisco grave.
and then
I belched loudly.
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I had just set my headphones
down when the intercom
buzzed and Ruben O’s
voice asked urgently:
“you ready man?”
I’m standing before the
multi-slide mixing board
in a studio dreamily
streaked in amber from
the track lights.
“Eagles Lyin’ Eyes man,
all six minutes and eleven
seconds. let’s go!” was
my reply.
this is a conversation
between two radio deejays
at two radio stations
in the same building
in San Antonio in the eighties.
it’s nearly three
in the morning and were
both bored and wanting
a “bump” to make it
through our night owl
radio shifts.
I crank up the monitor
in the control room
and swing the studio door
open and lock it back
so I can hear the song
play from thirty feet away.
Ruben O’ does the same
to his door across the hall.
this is what is happening
on the other side
of the microphone
as the
listening public
in four southern states
tunes in to hear
the Eagles on KTSA
and “Karma Chameleon”
by Boy George on KTFM.
sister stations in a
clay colored building
at the end
of a 200 yard
driveway off
Eisenhower Road
in San Antonio, Texas.
I’m already waiting outside
the back door where the
jocks park. my foot holding
the door open.
it’s a balmy summer night
and lightning silently shimmers
in the tall clouds to the north
of the Alamo City.
You can’t hide your lyin’ eyes…
You come and go, you come and go…
our dueling aired songs play
loudly and the sound
crashes through the
still air and echoes
boomingly off the
residential neighborhood
two blocks away.
we each take hurried hits
off the moistened roach.
holding the smoke in the
lungs for a few seconds.
two hits is all I need.
I’m already feeling a little
fuzzy. Ruben O’s ready
to go too.
“screw it man, that’s good
enough”
we both sprint back
down the hallway
to our respective
broadcast studios.
such is another night
as an all-night radio
deejay at twin stations
in south Texas
on a summer night
in the eighties.
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I am America’s greatest
living actor.
I commit to every role
so thoroughly and honestly
that you’ve never seen
me break character, never for
a moment have you lost
your suspension of disbelief.
which floor board creaks when
stepped upon on stage? I
can tell you. which corner
brings the best cast light? Easy.
I can see myself
through your eyes.
the instant you’ve heard
enough and beg for a
change in direction, I
am aware and comply
with your unspoken request.
when I’m not on stage
I’m studying your habits,
your moods, your
telegraphed motivations.
you tell me so much,
everything really. all that
is required is observation.
you’ve seen me watching
you, noting your movements,
taking mental snapshots of your
expressions, wondering why
you nod hello to her and
ignore him. why you smile
to him, and brusquely parade
past her.
my every waking moment
is totally and effortlessly
dedicated to mastering the
characters that shape our
every day lives.
hours pass without notice
when I’m noticing you.
the clock hands collapse
like a Salvador Dali painting,
tranquility pours over me,
quenches me all the while.
watching you entertains me.
you are the true star. you
are the complicated character.
you are the hero. you are
interesting, not I.
there lies within me
an indefatigable quest:
how to be more like you,
how to become you.
this vocation I ply for free,
never asking for a credit.
who am I?
I am the clerk at the
convenience store where you
get your morning coffee,
your next door neighbor,
the cop directing traffic up
ahead, the radio deejay
keeping you company in
the wee hours, the friendly
operator on the phone.
I am anyone whose
gaze meets yours.
you’ve known all along.
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she glided by in the fast lane on my left.
straddling the hind end of a hog,
looking elegant and lost.
in my mind I met her
at an art festival.
her denim outfit graced her curves,
she had a great ass,
you could tell.
we had coffee and talked,
and talked, and laughed.
she cradled my arm as we strolled
the shady, art-lined sidewalks.
I watched as her image passed
from my rear view mirror
to the peripheral field of vision
on my left.
her auburn hair tied up
in a bow beneath the red kerchief.
the suntanned
nape of her neck
the perfect back drop
for the silver earrings.
after she moved in,
we’d make love every night
the way new lovers
always do.
I know that far-away look.
you only think you’re trapped baby.
I could love you
as much as you want
to be loved.
the hog slides into the lane
in front of me. The asshole
didn’t even bother
with the turn signal.
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it's a good thing
it's summertime
a gentle night breeze
stirs the air above me.
as I stretch out
just below the stone
wall that encircles
the hallowed ground.
I am surprisingly
comfy with a belly
full of Dunkin Donuts
donated by Gretchen,
who wears the apron.
here is where my
home is for the next
eleven days and nights.
the turf is soft,
the company quiet.
nobody wants to
sleep in a cemetery,
except me.
doesn't seem to
bother me.
the morning dew
will softly awaken me.
as Gretchen pours
another cup of charity.
patrons will leave
the daily newspaper
for me to read.
the water and soap
works just fine in
the men's room.
the deodorant from
the drug store dumpster
keeps me from smelling
like the homeless man
that I am.
Duke LaDuke at
Astro Bowl told me
yesterday that he'd
start me as a mechanic
on Monday.
the Monday after that
I'll have my own place
and I can send for my
wife and infant son.
this was supposed to
be hard and in some
ways it was.
in many ways,
it wasn't so tough.
even enjoyable
for a spell.
but, eleven days is
plenty to contemplate
the sunrise and birdsongs.
these daily affirmations
can be appreciated just
as well by the salaried man.
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All across the nation
such a celebration
people in motion…
The radio station
in my head
plays on
with Scott McKenzie this time:
Are you going to San Francisco?
Be sure to wear flowers in your hair…
I can hear every note,
every nuance,
every tone
of the song
as if there were
a hi-fi turned on in the room.
While writing this poem, while
reading others,
I hear the
song of the day
playing on my internal
radio station.
As I’m listening and writing at this
very moment,
I wonder aloud
(to myself internally
and just above the radio),
Is this
what slipping into
schizophrenia must feel like?
If you’re going to San Francisco…
Is this what the homeless man
on the street corner,
in his filthy clothes,
hears in his head
as he contorts and
telegraphs his
internal radio station?
which corner has
he turned
from which
he cannot return?
Are you going to San Francisco?
Be sure to wear flowers in your hair…
the hallway ahead
is bathed in
sterile white light.
a bare bulb crackles
around the next corner.
what’s that?
a shadow
lurks menacingly
around
the corner.
whom casts the shadow?
could be
the
Spectre
of
Madness.
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I dreamt that I was
falling again.
this time
from the
clay tiled roof
of a school house.
toes curled,
stomach knotted.
Damn! It’s 2:50 in the
goddamned morning!
stealthily make your way
to the toilet I whispered to myself
in the ink black room.
I’ll just quietly take a piss
in the dark. sitting down,
so I can get back to sleep.
gotta friggin' work
tomorrow after all.
but then suddenly
I’m stricken with
that feeling of falling
again.
toes curl,
stomach knotted.
I crap a two-footer.
I mean, it just keeps
rolling out of me like
bread dough at a bakery.
beads of sweat
adorn my forehead
and I feel as though
I’ve just had the
greatest orgasm ever.
after settling back
into bed, I blithely
drift back to slumber.
unafraid of falling
again.
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AGONY is my new lover
and she never tires.
DISCIPLINE is my
new taskmaster.
through PAIN and
TORTURE I shall finally
know LIFE.
I'm adrift in
a BLACK sea.
TERROR swirls
beneath me in the
FORBIDDEN, black depths.
as IT swims by
it's chilled wake
sends shivers through
me and raises goose bumps
on my flesh.
IT can DEVOUR
me at anytime.
I've chosen not to care.
EVIL can find me,
possess me,
it's not my choice.
I am STRONG
and can tread water
for days.
Surreally, I am not AFRAID
as I turn my face up,
squinting
the yellow sun is HOPE
in a rust colored sky.
the wind is COMPASSION,
an unseen kindness that embraces me.
FAILURE is the black crow
wheeling in the sky above me.
HAPPINESS is the virga
on the horizon: rain drops
that EVAPORATE before settling
to the sea.
I'm shedding COMFORT
and contentment as a
serpent sheds it's old skin.
it is TOO LATE,
for I am born again
HARD.
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rawbone skinny and
leaning on a cane.
his eyes glazed as the
chill wind brought tears
and streaked them
across his angular cheeks.
his right foot in a
makeshift cast.
this old black man
had never seen an
easy day in his life.
there on Tampa Avenue
he had a look of weathered
mahogany, cold coffee,
thumb tacks and foot blisters.
if I’d had a twenty
it would have made it’s
way into his cup.
if there is a god,
I hope he’ll find this
man a tall bottle and
a warm bed tonight.
a little comfort
for a ruined soul.
as the light changed,
I dug into my ashtray
and came up with a few
lousy quarters.
looking into his eyes,
my heart broke a little,
like a cracked eggshell.
all I could manage to say
was, “I hope this helps”.
he nodded thanks
and moved on to the next car.
humbly and quietly
there remained grace
within this broken, old, black man.
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there’s nothing quite
as nice as
the smell of
a puppy's soft belly.
there’s nothing quite
as beautiful as those little
orange peel goose bumps
that surround
a girlfriend’s tits
on a dreamy
saturday morning.
there’s nothing quite
as refreshing as the
sweet smell of the air
after a thunderstorm
passes by.
there’s nothing quite
as panicky as
plugging up the toilet
in your friend's house.
there’s nothing quite
as dreadful as
struggling out of bed
in the morning
with a severe head cold.
there’s nothing quite
as shameful as
not speaking one’s mind.
there’s nothing quite
as honorable
as doing a good deed
without anyone else
noticing.
there’s nothing quite
as funny as
the crazy look a poodle
gets in it’s eye just before
launching into a running jag.
there’s nothing quite
as fun anytime you
drive a car over
90 miles per hour.
there’s nothing quite
as illuminating as
realizing your parents
are stupider than you thought.
there’s nothing quite
as sickening as
the moment you realize
you’ve lost
a lover to another.
there’s nothing quite
as unforgivable
as laying on your
death bed choked
with regret.
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